Old friends are the great blessing of one's later years . 2018 is kind of lucky year for me so far. I won a Lottery ( my Old lost friends) I have found two of my very old time friends.
I am feeling Nostalgic
They have a memory of the same events and have the same mode of thinking. - Horace Walpole
I am so Privileged
Remember that the most valuable antiques are dear old friends. - H. Jackson Brown
These friends had been absent from my life from almost 18 + years. Had anyone of them been physically present, my load would have been a little lighter; my loneliness would have been less intense. Revisiting shared history, and underneath the years apart is a strong foundation built with almost two decades of friendship and separation and good part is reconnection and intensity still remains the same after all these years .
Specially today when we were reminiscing about the past after 18 years. We were able to look back into those empty rooms left wide open by time apart and fill them with words and emotions and sentiments as if there were no time lost at all, but ( unfortunately or fortunately) I am spellbound I don't know what to say because its relative in a good and bad way....I wish I remembered it all about them but at the same time i am thankful that i have forgotten few things hence I said (# RELATIVE) but I could have met them before, would have put in efforts to find them but things happened only when it has to happen...... and I am so happy about this day today ( 8th April 2018). that after all these years my friends they both remember every bit of it, about us, about me ... unlike me... I have faded memories... so I am lucky to have them. Today I am also feeling so nice about the fact that ( people remembered me fondly and they have high thoughts and views about me, I am feeling special at least for (someone).
If I could, I would have bottled the good feelings so I could pour them out as and when required, good memories always helps. Instead, I though I should pen it down. So here I am after a very long time trying to capture them on my blog while they still warm my heart.
Life has been moving so fast lately, too fast sometimes but I miss the way things were back then. I miss how spending time together with friends used to be, how uncomplicated and selfless friendship used to be unlike today where on the name of friendship everyone is trying to cut a deal with each other on every step and asking the same questions over and again you ask for a help or discuss something ( What is there for me in It ) It has become so hard to meet friends physically or talk on phone, I miss the time when conversations that stretched for hours....endless discussions...sleepovers, borrowing cloths, sharing every small things happened during the day...
Now we have (almost) grown to accept the current reality of our friendship - a reality which is going to stay for long long time ( text, emails, whats app, Facebook, twitter,..and so on )
Somehow we have accepted the art of the comfortable silence. But i still wish things were different , I wrote sometime back that human interaction is missing somewhere...
So when my friend said they will come over to see me ....... not that lets keep chatting forever we felt physical presence is so imp to share all we have got from last 18+ years to share and I can't wait to see you guys around, I like it authentic and real, to be seen and known.
So when we are together again, it is going to be lot of fun
