The reality is that I
am afraid, too……But I always wanted a new city, something interesting and
different than now .Wanted to go somewhere I have never lived before.
But Life is strange…we
being a social animal…one always want a life surrounded with family, friends
and known people but everyone is not lucky to get it….and for me it was
always without them….though i was lucky to have few people in life who contributed
significantly in my life and I will always remain indebted to them and point to
be noted is they were not even related to me and we didn’t had any
blood relationship….but still whatever I am I am because of them.
I have mostly lived a
nomadic life, being a sportswomen always wandering here and there for
tournaments, camps and all. But from last couple of years I have stayed
in Delhi…..and Now when I decided to move which I always wanted too but lot
many people around me said…how can I leave a stable life and take a
decision of moving to a new place.
But I always believed
Stability is a farce, which is why finding life/solace in it creates such a
shock once something goes wrong. And my so called stability in Delhi is a
result of shock than anything else it took me so long to recover from the rude
shock which life gave me. Nothing in my life could be the same from one
day to the next so I always hope for the best and plan for the worst.
I don’t know what
future holds for me….but past has taught me various lessons…Life doesn’t move
as we plan it… at least I have not experienced the life that way over the
years. It never works that way....so what to think about and what to plan about
I have no clue... and hence I have decided to go with the wind, and it gets
much easier when you remember and start understanding that, everything in life is temporary, Just don’t
expect anything .
I am trying to do
things that will make me happy today. And Todays demand is to move on from past
and to live in to present.
Just be you, but try not to judge other people
instantaneously. You don’t know their background, their story, what they’ve
been through, or why they do what they do.
I never learned to fake myself, so it is difficult to manage
a dual standard. I have always been who I was and who I am. I am going to be in
a new city, where you don’t need to try and please people who don’t like you
for who you are. I don’t judge people (instantly) nor do me like that way.
This isn’t going to be like back home where you’ve been
ingrained into the same group of people that you kind of have to get along with
for the sake of the fact you’ve known them forever.
Will Do Things I ’ve Been Putting I am going to be in
a new city! It gives the wave of excitement and I will take the
opportunity to do things which otherwise I have put off over the passing years.
I always meant to go for jogging, yoga, meditation, gym,
music travelling beaches and mountains. I will use it as a chance to
explore new city and starting all over again….. Until sometime back I’d lay in
bed at night and dream about what it would be like to start over. I would move
somewhere and no one would know who I was. I’d be living alone and in peace.
Now when I have got that opportunity….I am still scared
somewhere…but taking a plunge and will see what happens….
No one can go back and make a new
start......but one can always start from now.
