Summer Vacation

Summer vactaions were coming to an end, the sinking feeling in my heart deepened. have been batteling with this feeling from past one week...and now one more night left and he will be gone...:( Its a tough call to handel.....its so hard to see an empty house, without the chit chat, noises, demands and lot of hustel bustel which only child can bring in. I have always been fighting this big battel between my Head nd heart about my decision of sending him to boarding school inspite of his reluctance. Changes are often unaceptable be its kids or we as an adults... But responsiveness to changes is what keeps us going... one would certainly not know unless you try it out. so i tried and you only know when one weighs the pros and cons and finds that boarding outweighs living at home for various reasons.When we become parents we want to give best in the owrld to our child....i too have dreamt. Now month long vacation is over and i am going through all sorts of emotions, but as a working mother, one of my biggest challenges was and is time management, And within that finding enough time for him for his studies and other activities... so on the other hand i am trying to convince myself that whatever i have decided for him was the best. One hand he is in denial...Maa...i will not go back...i will say with you.... why i cnt stay here?...why is it important for you to send me back..... why i came back in this vacation also..wheni can stay there for rest of the months...i can stay there for this vactaion month also... and N number of Such Why's i get stuck in too.... it becomes so difficult to answer such WHY thing.... On the other hand when he is really calm, he is all excited excited at the prospect of going back. We prepared the list of things he wanted to carry back. Truth remains.....that he will go back...and i will be on my own again... missing him every day and night...