Self Esteem and Emotional Abuse

"Great spirits have always encountered violent oppression from mediocre minds” ~ Albert Einstein.

 

From Past couple of  months I have been evaluating things and I have been feeling confused about the relationship,  like you are “walking on eggshells” all the time. or kind of  off balance.

 

A relationship can be unhealthy or abusive even without physical violence. Emotional abuse cause emotional pain and scarring it may not cause physical damage but causing emotional damaging is bigger then physical damage. This is the kind of abuse that often sneaks up on you as you become more entrenched in the relationship.

 

Many days and night i kept wondering but I realize Replaying scenarios over and over will only have the mind reliving negative experiences again and again, only prolonging the suffering. They just breed negative emotions, depleting the body’s energy, clouding clarity of thought, and hurt future relationships

 

 Emotional abuse can touch a person at the core of their mental and emotional abilities. emotional abuse can create all sorts of uncertainty, self doubt and self esteem issues.

 

I realized past events still trigger anger, frustration, fear, hurt, rejection, or other negative emotions. I have been constantly feeling these emotions, and  all these emotions have hold on me.I can’t begin living life in a new way until I get rid of them. I am not obligated to hang around for anyone to completely destroy my sense of identity and respect.

 

Our dignity is all you and I really have. When that is assaulted, we must choose whether to protect it or allow it to be destroyed.   

 

Emotional Abusers are expert manipulators with a knack for getting you to believe that the way you are being treated is your fault. These people know that everyone has insecurities, and they use those insecurities against you.

  

Some of them  I have gone trough myself.

 

Humiliating or embarrassing me

Constant put-downs

Hypercriticism

Refusing to communicate

Ignoring  and excluding

Use of sarcasm and unpleasant tone of voice

Extreme moodiness

Mean jokes

Saying "I love you but..."

Saying things like "If you don't _____, I will_____"

Withdrawal of affection

Making everything my fault

Isolating from friends 

Using money to control

 

Many Sleepless nights, many thoughts, many questions  crosses my mind each day and night. and eventually resulted  being forgetful, confused and unable to concentrate, lost interest and energy to do the things I used to.

 

I decided finally  that I have the right to make my own decisions, in my own time, and that dealing with any form of abuse may take time. I have to Trust myself and my own experiences. also I have to  believe in my own strengths.  and I need to do everything survive to gracefully.

 

Then I  told myself  it’s time to be different and  I have to support myself, my mental and emotional needs in a meaningful and willful manner. And I need some time to heal.

 

Love is blissful when it is reciprocated. Its important for us to know that you may "love" this person, but that they do not "love" you or respect you.

  

 "Truth is everybody is going to hurt you and you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for"