Today my son got up and wished me a happy father’s Day!!! ...and i didn’t knew how to react on it , I was surprised...still i tried to control my emotions and said Thanks to him.... and hugged him.
After sometime i just asked him...why did u wish me father’s day and he said since he is not around i thought i should wish you.......i was amused with this gesture and didn’t know how to react.
My child resembles
his father, his looks, his nails, hands, legs, feet, the way he eat sleep stands, walk, talk, liking ,disliking.....and what not... ...He is just like him,I get emotional sometimes just seeing his face, at times while he is sleeping eating ...and all his day to day activities...brings tears to my eyes....
At times i feel i am living with my ex in the form of my son..... but i have lot of love for him then my ex...guess that’s the reasons irrespective of all odds all these years i was unable to hate him...and get him off my life...virtually he still exits somewhere in our life....
I am sure he doesn’t miss us or think about us......but at the same time i was thinking....that he might be thinking of his son on this day....previously when no one knew what mother’s day or father’s day is all about...we never knew that...i came to know about valentine’s day when i was in college...and after that so many days came up......
But now a days with so much of publicity around about all these days...and its everywhere be it news or radio channel or hoardings...so i was wondering what he might be thinking about. He is missing him at least today...when all these news channels are filled with all these news...and market has special offers and so on...or like all these years..it doesn’t matter to him....this was the first time when my son came to know about this day...he gave me a card on mother’s Day....
Guess he is very unfortunate...that he is blessed with a son...and still gives damm to it...
And he often comes in our some or other discussion... and cross our minds.... when my son wants to know why he is not with US?....What kind of Job he does ..Which doesn’t allow him to take leaves and stay with us...?
How come other dad's are able to come back home in the evening... why not mine...why we are not going out on a vacation at a p lace where he lives... and so many Why .why, why?....... and it all goes unanswered...maybe he started understanding off late...so frequency of questions have gone down...but i just keep thinking...is this all is leaving a negative impact on his mind?
Do i have to do something about It????
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