Today I had a kind of bad day………to start with….
I was driving and was about to take a U turn at the crossroad…and suddenly light changed and I stopped there…waiting for other side to move….and then again my turn came..And as soon as I started there was a truck coming with high speed...so I took a break and half of the truck passes and then my car got a Hit…fortunately …just a number plate breakage and a dent on the front side….i got down from the car and so did the driver…and stated saying sorry and all its just a minor touch and all..Lot of traffic got stuck in the mean time…so I decided to move on then arguing and jamming the traffic for no reason…..
But I was very upset and did not had any choice, so i started driving back as I had to rush for my office for a important meeting…..I was late by 2 minuts so I decided to just enter in the meetings….left my purse and all with office boy…..
After three hrs when I came out of meeting…..I decided to check my phone… and couple of missed call was there….so I decided to return the call before I do something else and get busy with work…
I have been sick for a while and hence lot of work has piled up...I was trying to return someone’s call…and this person didn’t pick up the phone..I thought maybe he is busy in a meeting..since he called me 7 times( I checked the timings it was just at that point of time when I was out of car and checking dents and talking to that driver…) I tried calling him up again and again till eve ,in the end he picked up my phone for a sec and disconnected…. Thought may be connection problem so I called up again and he didn’t answered so I just sent him an sms saying you are strange u picked up my phone and didn’t answered and now you are not picking up what’s wrong………
In return I have got a reply which says I am very insensitive..And he would not like to talk to me…….
And I thought maybe he is angry to I sent him a sms back that due to some reasons I wasn’t able to pick my phone, but as soon as I came to know I tried returning your call and u were not picking up…..and since then I am trying till now…
But I never got a reply back……still I tried calling…but no response…
Then I started thinking am I insensitive….or people are who cannot think rationally are insensitive…is this a big issues to make…if I don’t take someone’s call…or reply sms on email on time….I may be going through things… but before getting angry and giving judgments did u really tried to know what was wrong with me…why I didn’t took the call…and so on…
And today’s episode took me a little back also..when my day was going bad in the office…one of my friend died and one of my colleague has resigned…and lot of office pressure…and unnecessary pressure was on me…and someone was trying to communicate with me… till lunch I was very upset but was able to communicate…in which I mentioned about office day and whatever was going on and I said I am feeling like resigning today…and couple of other things……still this person kept sending me messages….and I didn’t replied in between…and then I got a SMS asking me what wrong with me…and I said I am just upset at the moment…and then I went off for a meeting I came out in eve and before getting in the car I checked my phone… an d there was a sms asking me are you upset with me…. And I replied….you already know that why I am upset and I started driving back home….. there was some sms to that reply……so in reply I just replied back that at times people don’t think rationally…and I should have given a proper reply and shouldn’t mix personal and professional life…but I just did that…..
Now I was talking about myself that I was angry and in bad mood in office and didnt respond back properly…
But this sms has blew our friendship and that person felt offended and he didn’t hear me after that …I kept telling him that I am talking about myself…but he felt I am talking about him and he felt offended……
Well I tried my best for couple of days..In convincing him that u should listen to me once..Before saying n number of things to me or calling me insensitive…and what not……but didn’t work……
Why I am talking about these two episodes is because again today’s episode after the previous one….left me thinking that………
IS THAT ME WHO IS INSENSETIVE…….OR PEOPLE ARE WHO DIDT EVEN HEAR ME OUT FOR ONCE OF TRIED TO KNOW WHAT PROBLEMS I WAS IN…..OR WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH.
I don’t want to judge anyone here….but all I could make out of all this is ….tolerance power has gone somewhere… now a days if things are not moving as you desired..simplest way is to kick out…….that too on SMS…..don’t even have patience to hear them out…or giving a second thought….
How mechanical life has become……. Compromise, patience tolerance,Understannding..Forgiveness, emotions….sense of responsibility…… all these words have lost there meanings….
Now a days if things are not my way…..u better get lost…..no one will bother about it.
End of the Day it hurts me....that for no solid reasons...something came to an end.......
But Life must Go on..... so guys i will miss you!!!!
Before ending this I must mention about somebody...who is there and aware of that i am not going through a very positive phase of life... and gives me all the space...and ear
I am bit of moody these days...guess i am sick and not feeling so good in general... so at times i reply to emails and at times i dont ...
but i want to thank him for all the patience......and for being there...
Thank you So much!!!! It means a lot to me......:)
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