June - Sept 11

Last Four months were pretty hectic and i have come across some wonderful and not so wonderful people but learnt something or other thing from each one of them.

These three months were full of sorrows , grief’s, momentarily happiness, sense of achievement, sense of failure, overwhelming days and nights, to many things at the same time, and a lot more to it.

There were moments when i felt that wish i had that someone right there who can just hold me tight and take me out of that same thought which were again and again coming from the centre at great speed such that it overtakes everything else, also suppressing every other possible thought.

There were moments when i felt i am better off alone, at least I am responsible for whatever I do, no blame games, no problems...it’s just me who can make it good or worse.

Life has taken me from one place to other and took the complete U turn, leaving me behind wondering now what is next………..
My decisions, my plans, my thoughts, everything were changing almost on daily basis….. they l call it as living day by day…nothing as per plans were moving…….
Every day you dig a well and have water………………… after that start thinking of food and so on……..
Every year in beginning I plan and tell myself this year we will celebrate my son’s birthday in a grand way…..but every year some or other thing happens…and we end up doing nothing.

But irrespective of all odds I have decided to celebrate his Birthday…….wished things were better than the way it is now……but then I think it could have been other way round too…things could have been worse then what is today… so decided to go with the wind…..
“Apnee marjee sey kaha apny safar key hum hain…
Ruukh hawaoo kaa jidhar kaa udhar key hum hain”