PTM - 22 October

Like any other PTM i have faced another PTM today....Me and my son every time we go for PTM ,always faces same kind of questions...why are we alone
why his dad didn’t turned up...he should take offs from job for at least PTM.....its imp to have both parents involvements and so on and so forth...people just keep asking without realizing anything and i being with my son around...unable to give them a shut up call... and either i keep listening or keep giving some or other kind of excuses. His annual day is there people said tell him to attend that at least and to take out some time for his own kid.... what am i supposed to do ...shout in public that he will never be there.....we are without him ...just leave us alone...i wish i could do that...
But why do i get upset about it every time...? i really don’t know...but such events takes me to my past and make me think abt everything all over again. I start wondering what kind of father he is ....why he can’t be there.......
I don’t know how do i deal with it, many more PTM's to come and SAD part is when u see your son making stories about why his father is not there.... really want to ask him at times...wht is there in his mind about him....what he feels , how he feels about being confronted by kids there parents and so on...... but don’t have that courage to do that.
how long i can avoid people like this...i dont know but i keep doing that.....just don’t want to be part of any public gathering.....
today there was a Diwali Mela in society...went downstairs to pick my son at 9.30 pm and half of the stalls were closed...still in that 5 mins appearance i have been asked so many questions ....same stories every time....
why it’s so hard for people to accept things which is happening in someone else’s life and they have nothing to do with it...still they are so much bothered.... so inquisitive, and feel happy doing that….
All this gossips and questions takes my sleep and peace away…and mind becomes so busy thinking about all this……you just don’t feel normal yourself………you have to make efforts to put mind at rest and sleep and forget the day and start another fresh day……
With a hope things will change some day!!!!